your life can be depicted as a tree... the trunk being you and the branches being the people you meet... you might be a small tree or you might be a large tree... only you would know... there shouldnt be a need to compare yourself with other trees because big trees might die faster den a smaller tree... the branches, meaning your friendships, are your networks... hence, you will see yourself growing all the time because you would meet loads of people in life...

some branches are strong... they wont break... those are friendships that you care the most about and you know it will last a lifetime... they are firm and will support you when you fall... fallen branches are, obviously, fallen friendships.. whether it came early or late, it just didnt last and it fell off your tree... some branches are weak... they are just hanging in there.. whether or not it will last depends on the might of the wind... if there is no wind, it might mend and stay for a long time... if a strong wind came by, it will definitely drop off...

what i am trying to say is, wind, being conflicts etc, might come and destroy a friendship within your tree... whether you wanna save it or throw it depends on how you deal with the wind... if you just let it be, it will definitely break off... or you can try mending it and see how it goes from there... if you never try, you would never know right?? rather than living in question everyday, why not just face the problems and be done with it... at least you have closure... closure is the very first step to healing in any problems one might face... if you cant find that closure, you will be miserable all your life, wondering of what might have become....

as i have posted in my posts over and over and over again, i believe friendships are forever.. but sometimes things just dont go the way you want it to be... sometimes you find the people you think you know, arent who they are... sometimes you just give up on them... sometimes you just feel like you have wasted enough time on them... and you feel it isnt worth it anymore... hence, the fallen branch..

i know the word above isnt necessarily a word but i dont care... this is my space... lolz... few days ago, my friends and i were talking... and we got into something and my friend suddenly tells me and i quote.. "Penny, you are Godsent. Among all my friends in Penang, i feel you are the most genuine friend i have". of all the things in the world, i would NEVER have thought i would be called genuine... i dont know how they got into this conclusion, but WOW... it got me shedding tears on the inside... i honestly dont know what i did but i am really really appreciative for those comments... it really made my month... lolz...

i dont know.. recently, i feel like i care a bit too much about other people... the wrong people... to the extend that i feel that they are taking advantage of me... it never occurred to me until a friend of mine told me... then it hit me... true?? maybe... but for the past few days, i have been thinking... i wouldnt change who i am... i like who i am.. i care a hell lot about friends, family, work, etc... its like an attribute that is already there... i cant help it... i cant not care.. but i will choose the people whom i care for more from now on... some people just dont deserve it...

maybe that's what my friends saw in me... i genuinely cared for them... i do... some embraced it... some took advantage of it... to me, friends are forever... but some friendships do not last a lifetime... sometimes things just fall apart... its life... we have to live it come whatever may... perseverance and tolerance is usually the key to my strength... what else can i do??